10:04 Sitting here at my first STEPPS informational session. It’s a group for people like me, people with borderline disorder. I look around and see people of all different ages and shapes and sizes and what catches my eye is the pen one of the students are using. It’s this green pen that a friend once gave me. It writes so smoothly and so nicely. We are about to start now.

11:25 It’s over. The information session I mean. I stayed and finished the homework (goal sheet) that I had to do. So my name should be on the waitlist now. And let the waiting begin. 

I am not too sure how I feel now. I was anxious all meeting and kept scratching my hand throughout. Now Im just sitting here going about my day. I feel kind of numb I guess is the best way to describe it.