Day 1 without you in my life…
I lost count ten hours ago how many moments I wanted to text you and tell you something. This day has been so odd, not reaching out.
No tears yet but I can tell they’re there. I am still constantly checking your social media posts. I know it’s not healthy but I haven’t had the strength to delete you yet. You didn’t go to school/work today. How come? What’s wrong? Your pinterest posts have gotten me confused. They got me wondering if you regret your choice. Or maybe that’s just my inner hope. I’m still hoping you realize the mistake you have made. I’m still hoping you will call me and say Yes I want you. Im sorry.
Day 1 has almost ended and I’m still here. Let’s see what tomorrow has to bring.