Today has been even harder. I barely slept last night. I kept dreaming about you and waking up to look at you only to realize that you weren’t there.
The morning was okay but by the afternoon, I wanted to run to you.
I keep having moments where I imagine that you have realized what you had. But maybe you have realized and you’ve decided I’m really not worth it.
It hurts sitting here alone, knowing that you’re there with her. That you have made this decision and are happy. Don’t get me wrong, all I want is for you to be happy. It just kills that I think of you ever second but I doubt you think of me that often.
It takes everything in my power not to call you and ask again for you back. Maybe you want me back but are too scared to admit it? Or maybe I would just make a fool of myself while you say no to me.
I don’t know how long I can do this for. But there’s nothing to do but wait and see